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Tejaswee Rao Blogging Award

26 Dec
I just WON a Tejaswee Rao Blogging Award, and I didn’t even know I was nominated! Thank you, IHM and the community at IHM’s blog, for this wonderful honor. I’m also in the running for a cash prize which I intend to donate to if I win.

[Obligatory SQUEEEEEEEEEE break OMG OMG I won my first blogging award!]

Ahem.

The post for which I won the award (Biology vs. Culture: DEATHMATCH) got me thinking. I’ve quite stopped blogging about feminism here, haven’t I? It’s intentional. And it’s been hard. It’s one of the main reasons why I haven’t been blogging very much, because I so often want to and then I think … oh, don’t want to blog feminism again. 

The reason is both ugly and stupid.

Any non-anonymous feminist blogger faces loads of vocal opposition from real-life folks who think feminism is passe or unnecessary or whiny or annoying or strident. It can often get personal: people whose opinions and friendships I value have asked me, “But why are YOU complaining so much when your life is filled with almost too much equality!” And of course my life is positively bursting with privilege so it’s churlish to respond “it is NOT”, and continue blogging as if they never said anything, even if they were completely wrong on many levels to say what they said. It’s so hard to be labeled a bitch by real-life friends! How does anybody navigate that?

That’s the ugly part.

The stupid part is where I censor myself and stop blogging just because some readers responded in a less-than-totally-thrilled fashion. Boo, hiss, get blogging, Nandini, and stop worrying about the critics. Right? I should get that tattooed on the back of my hand so it’s staring at me whenever I start to type.

Oooor I could just look at the shiny new blog award I got, and the seriously awesome post which I got the award for, and use them as both bitch-shield and inspiration to blog a lot more.

In conclusion, I would like to thank the Academy…

Mera Naam Joker

18 Aug

It’s a slow evening at home.

Saurabh and Angad are on the PC together. Saurabh’s got two Firefox windows open side by side; he surfs on one while Angad watches YouTube music videos on the other. Angad is naked from the waist down, because we’re toilet-training him the lazy way: off with diapers and hope for the best.

I’m on the laptop, attempting to write. But I can’t. Because this is what’s happening:

Angad:
(jumping up and down) Light-dance! You wanna watch light-dance! (Kid mixes up his “I”s and “you”s)

Saurabh:
OK.

~ Five min break as Fred Astaire song from Royal Wedding plays, in which the dude dances all over the ceiling, including over the lights hanging from it. The song has barely ended when …~

Angad: Omegdunno. Omegdunno! You want omegdunno!

Saurabh: Whut?

Angad: (enunciating as if Baba’s IQ is low today) Youuu wannnnt omegdunnooooooo!

Saurabh: (turning to me) What’s omegdunno?

Me: Old McDonald.

Saurabh: We have got to teach him to say his Ls. Angu, say “lll lalala”.

Angad: Nnn nanana.

Saurabh: *facepalm*

Angad: OMEG DUNNOOOOOO!

Me: You know what we really need to teach him to say? “Please”.

~ Two min break as Old McDonald‘s entire farm has its say and Angad sings along. Song ends. Angad does not pause for breath. ~

Angad: Suku-suku! You want to watch suku-suku!

Saurabh: Suku-suku is boring, Angu, let’s watch something else.

Angad: You want suku-suku-bore! Suku-suku-BORE!

Saurabh: LOL, OK, shush.

~ Angad dances around the room enthusiastically. Ten minute break as suku-suku-BORE plays. ~

~ …. or so I thought. Suku-suku is still playing, but Angad is now standing in front of me, trying to shut off my laptop and pull me up to a standing position. ~

Angad: Have you made a pee-pee. Amma! Have you made a pee-pee! Amma! (You guessed it: he mixes up his “have you…”s and “I have…”s as well.)

Me: WTF I’m writing, tell Baba to clean it.

Saurabh: ~ has beaten a strategic retreat to far-off areas of the house ~

Me: *sigh* OK, let’s clean this up.

Angad: Amma and Angu will keen-keen (read: clean-clean)!! YAY!!11! ~ Runs off at top speed to get cleaning supplies, because cleaning up is his favourite thing in the world. Can this kid really be my biological son? ~

Me: (while cleaning) Next time, Angu, you should pee in the toilet. Try it. It’s fun.

Angad: ~ Is not listening. Insists on “helping”. Sprays carpet cleaner on his own feet. Rubs dirty cleaning rag on TV screen. Pees a little bit more out of sheer delight. ~

Me: Idiot child, where have you peed now? Show me so I can clean it!

Angad: *looks around speculatively*

Me: (soliloquising) Oh this is going to be good…

Angad: Fan! You peed on the ceiling fan!

Me: ORLY, and how did you get up there to do your business?

Angad: (without missing a beat) You did the light-dance!

~ Ba dum tishhh. ~

My son, ladies and gentlemen. He’s here all week!

Stories of Boston

27 Jun

The old Hancock Building on Boston harbour has a spire on top of it that incorporates a light that acts as Boston’s weather vane. Colour codes represent different states of weather… with one exception as told in this old rhyme:

Steady blue, clear view.
Flashing blue, clouds due.
Steady red, rain ahead.
Flashing red, snow instead.
(except during baseball season, when it means the Red Sox game has been called off).

That’s Boston for you. It’s a city that strikes me as endlessly charming due to the meticulous care Bostonians have taken to preserve, catalogue and celebrate their past… but just when you start to think they’re a bunch of stuffy historians, along comes a little twist that reveals their playful side, like the Red Sox worming their way onto the Hancock Building weather vane.

And then there’s that story you hear about the Harvard Bridge, built across the widest point on the winding, very sedate Charles River: apparently, the two big universities, Harvard and MIT both wanted the bridge to be named after themselves. MIT insisted it had first claim, because the bridge actually leads into their campus. The row continued for a few years, before somebody from MIT, while examining the plans for the bridge, found a flaw in the way it was designed. Well, that was that for MITians… they weren’t going to be associated with something that wasn’t perfectly engineered, so Harvard Bridge it was.

Hmm.

Wait for the twist.

When you walk along the bridge, you notice these strange markings on it: “50 Smoots”, “100 Smoots”, “250 Smoots”. It turns out that the official unit of measurement for the Harvard Bridge is Smoots, Smoot being a kid who had the bad luck of being the shortest guy in his batch in his freshman year at MIT. You can probably guess what happened.

In October 1958, Oliver R. Smoot was rolled head over heels across the Harvard Bridge by his fraternity brothers of MIT’s Lambda Chi Alpha fraternity as part of an initiation pledge. One Smoot measures 5’7″. There are markings on the bridge at every 10 Smoots, normally, though there are exceptions: the 70-Smoot mark is omitted in favor of a mark for 69; the 182.2-Smoot mark is accompanied by the words “Halfway to Hell” and an arrow pointing towards MIT. The total length of Harvard Bridge is 364.4 Smoots plus one ear.

I don’t know if that’s Smoot’s ear or someone else’s.

(Interesting asides: Wikipedia also tells me that

This was only the beginning of Smoot’s career in standards and measurement; he later became Chairman of the American National Standards Institute (ANSI) and President of the International Organization for Standardization (ISO).

And did you know

Google Calculator also knows about Smoots. Enter 10 feet in Smoots at Google and the calculator will tell you that 10 feet is 1.79104478 Smoots.

)

Saurabh and I were in Boston for four days during New Year’s 2006 (wow that’s 4.5 yrs ago!), staying with some rather cool relatives – my sister-in-law’s brother-in-law and his wife, who will for convenience be called Renu and Neeraj. The day we reached there we went out in the evening to watch King Kong, which was a pretty good movie, considering how much it grossed me out. Anyway.

Not even in fantasies had I imagined that Boston would be so… Boston. Everything in Boston is the first or the oldest of its kind. On our first full day there, we toured Harvard, the oldest university in the country, which also has the largest library in the world with thirteen BILLION books. We saw the statue of John Harvard – infamously known as the statue of three lies, because the date that the statue gives as the founding year of Harvard is wrong, because John Harvard was not the founder of the university, and because in real life, the man had an ugly old mug utterly unlike the one on the statue.

See what I mean about the twists?

We had a lot of fun at Harvard. The buildings are beautiful and stately, and the one known as the Memorial Hall is quite something else – and they use it to house, among other things, a canteen for the students.. stained glass windows, Gothic spires and all. Renu, my sister-in-law-in-law-in-law (SILILIL, for short), is an amazing tour guide. She knows all the stories about everything, and regaled us endlessly with little anecdotes about the things we were looking at. All the stories here in this entry are what she told us as we went around the place.

We wandered out of Harvard and towards the train station for our next destination, stopping along the way to admire the buildings and in particular, a sign painted on one of the windows of an old building identifying it as a law firm: Dewey, Cheetham & Howe. (Say it out loud. Yup. It’s a prank, there’s no law firm there.) We took the train to Quincy Market, which is an old, old marketplace just by the Boston Harbour. Now there’s a huge food court there and a whole bunch of souvenir shops. Outside Quincy Market, there’s a big courtyard sort of place with strange markings on the stones that make up the floor of the square. The broken, jagged line marks out the original Boston Harbour line. Everything outside of the line is reclaimed land.

What a great place to play “in the pond, on the bank”.

After a very filling late lunch, we wandered out of Quincy Market to christmas lights blazing on the trees on all six cylinders. It was getting pretty darn cold out, as evidenced by the many little ice sculptures that were beginning to make their appearence in the walkway outside the market.

Flashing red on the Hancock Building was what we mostly caught later that night, New Year’s Eve. It’s quite something to be out in a parade that gets thoroughly snowed on… but brave the cold we did. It wasn’t anything great, as parades go, and one lesson that we’ve come away with is that there’s nothing that matches a parade seen on TV – the fewer people you annoy by elbowing ahead of them in order to see something for once, the better. But the atmosphere was charged, the company was great, and no matter what, we were always in Boston, which meant we kept passing interesting little (and big) landmarks and historical sites along the way as we folowed after the parade.

For one thing, there were some fantastic ice sculptures to feast our eyes on. At Quincy Market earlier in the day, we’d already seen a lot of these but they’re pretty and colourful no matter how many you’ve seen, so we snapped pictures again.

And here’s something that gives you a sense of how everything in Boston is old and venerable… we passed an ice sculpture in the making, one of Hansel and Gretl and the witch standing at her house which, if you remember, was made of cakes and chocolate, and another ice sculpture (call it an ice-banner) announced that today was the thirtieth anniversary of this ice sculpture being made on this spot.

Anyway, that’s where I’m going to leave us and this story – stamping our feet and doing tap dances to keep our toes from freezing up on us as we chatted about this and that, waiting for the fireworks to start. I can’t think of a better way we could have spent New Year’s eve. I can’t think of a place I’d rather visit than Boston right now. I can’t think of anything I’d rather do than listen to all its little stories all day.

Review of The Dispossessed: An Ambiguous Utopia by Ursula K. Le Guin

20 Apr


Loved this book.

For the first time in years it was like reading a book written by an adult who has thoughts worth writing down, not just entertaining stylings by someone who knows how to spin me a good story of little consequence. For example:

There are souls…whose umbilicus has never been cut. They ever got weaned from the universe. They do not understand death as an enemy; they look forward to rotting and turning into humus.

A scientist can pretend that his work isn’t himself, it’s merely the impersonal truth. An artist can’t hide behind the truth. He can’t hide anywhere.

Perhaps it’s dubious praise coming from me, since I neither read nor understand most books labeled True Literature ™, but this sure felt like the real deal. The book felt meaty even though it’s quite short, especially for this genre.

I found myself lingering over the simplicity and clarity of the writing, which was sometimes almost poetry. For example, the opening lines:

There was a wall. It did not look important. It was built of uncut rocks roughly mortared. An adult could look right over it, and even a child could climb, it. Where it crossed the roadway, instead of having a gate it degenerated into mere geometry, a line, an, idea of boundary. But the idea was real. It was important. For seven generations there had been nothing in the world more important than that wall.

Like all walls it was ambiguous, two-faced. What was inside it and what was outside it depended upon which side of it you were on.

and later in the book –

Gvarab was old enough that she often wandered and maundered. Attendance at her lectures was small and uneven. She soon picked out the thin boy with big ears as her one constant auditor. She began to lecture for him. The light, steady, intelligent eyes met hers, steadied her, woke her, she flashed to brilliance, regained the vision lost. She soared, and the other students in the room looked up confused or startled, even scared if they had the wits to be scared. Gvarab saw a much larger universe than most people were capable of seeing, and it made them blink. The light-eyed boy watched her steadily. In his face she saw her joy. What she offered, what she had offered for a whole lifetime, what no one had ever shared with her, he shared. He was her brother, across the gulf of fifty years, and her redemption.

For the first time ever I want to ANALYSE a book in a very textbooky fashion after I’ve read it – I’m going off in daydreams pondering questions like (WARNING: MINOR SPOILER) “Why does Shevek reject his mother? Is this significant in terms of the Odonian belief in gender equality?” (END OF MINOR SPOILER) and “Is LeGuin saying an anarchist society can only exist in a desert, not a land of plenty?” When I was at school, they made us ask and answer such questions on whatever we were supposed to read for Lit class, it used to ruin the book for me.

Another first is that even though I obviously loved this book, and found LeGuin very convincing and very impressive, I’m not a convert to Odonism/anarchism. That’s a minor miracle, you know. I’m very convertible. Ask anyone. But LeGuin has a faith in the goodness of human nature that I don’t share – in her anarchist Anarres it takes seven generations for even a semblance of a power structure to form; I don’t think real human beings would “be good” for a seventh as long. Le Guin’s argument is that a strong-enough culture of constant revolution is capable of achieving that. Maybe she’s right, who knows? I was brough up in the opposite sort of culture, the capitalist one, which so frequently reminds me that man’s basic nature is greed/power-seeking that it probably is self-perpetuating. I probably cannot begin to imagine what it would be like to have the other half of human nature – goodwill, sociality, pure love of work/play that is its own reward – reinforced a hundred times a day by the world around me…

There I go on another daydream.

The book does have flaws, of course… Its conception of what sexism is, and how we ought to deal with it, is rather dated. And like I said, I don’t agree with its philosophy, because the author’s view of human nature is too rosy. The book also does not have what is termed immediacy, it’s not a page-turner. This is because the hero does not have any urgent need, nor does the story have any explosive conflict. It’s a well-constructed, interesting and profound but placid book.

I read this book placidly too, in half-hour installments – that’s how long my commute to work is. Since I have to walk a little to/from the bus stop, I also spent about 10 minutes before and after the half hour reading session thinking about what I had read. This really added to my experience of this book. I think it would have been quite different if I had inhaled it whole in three hours on the couch, as is my usual fashion. Hmm… Something to be said there for patience with one’s reading material, but of course it’s very rare to find a book that deserves it as much as this one does.

On a side note, now I’m more interested than ever in reading my old college buddy Madhav Mathur’s book, Diary of an Unreasonable Man. He’s promoting it as an anarchist manifesto… I gotta bump it up my TBR list.

So I’m giving The Dispossessed five stars out of five. Just in case my effervescent effusiveness had not clued you in yet. Read it! It’s good!

PS: A couple of other book reviews are up on my Goodreads profile. Anybody here on Goodreads? Friend me!

Night in Bright Satin

24 Feb

It’s midnight, but you’d never know it to look outside my window right now.

A thick blanket of snow is beaming the streetlamps out to the sky. A heavy canopy of clouds is reflecting it back, and the snow is like, right back atcha… On and on they go with their mad game of passing the parcel, but this parcel of light gets bigger and brillianter the more they play.

Half the houses on the street have turned on the lights indoors. Who can sleep when it’s practically daylight out?

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